“He who conceals his transgressions
will not prosper. But he who confesses and forsakes them will find compassion.”
Proverbs 28:13
Pinocchio- the adorable little story about a marionette
who wants to become a real boy. It touches on this real theme, as well as the
power of dreaming and the ability to love.
And yes,
there’s also the lesson about lying, hence Pinocchio’s growing nose every time
he tells a fib.
And that
reminds me about the often chaotic journey of recovery when it comes to our
addictions, compulsions and issues.
A lot of us
having growing noses, don’t we?
Addiction-
related issues are subtle, tricky things which seem to sneak up on us from “out
of nowhere.” A lot of us may not look “the type.” We may not look like such
creatures as an alcoholic, a drug addict or a person struggling with eating
disorders. We may appear to have “normal” looking noses, so to speak.
In my case,
I have a short turned up nose. In fact, I don’t have a bone in it, which allows
me to press it down and completely flatten it. It’s a great party trick. I
mention this, not so you can stare at my nose and be entertained by its
flatness. I mention it to illustrate how things are not as they appear.
Me, the nice
girl who “looked” like everything was fine, was, in reality, a desperate,
struggling, lying sufferer of all things eating disorder. And, due to an
inaccurate estimation of damning shame and failure, I believe I needed to lie
about my condition instead of seeking help for it.
So, there I
was, “no-nose Sheryle,” getting a bigger spiritual honker by the second as I
repeatedly attempted to convince everyone, myself and God included, of how I
was “fine.”
Yeah, right.
But what’s
the old saying? Confession is good for the soul. Indeed, it is a major recovery
principle.
“Confess
your faults one to another, and
pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a
righteous man availeth much.”
James
5:16
We have to
get real. And most of us have a lot of trouble doing just that. We are driven
by perfectionism, expectation, failure, image and unmet need. We lie to
ourselves about just how important
those things are to us. Repeatedly
spouting how “we’re fine” won’t bring healing.
Scripture
says it best...
“If we say that we have no sin, we are
deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is
faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
1 John 1:8-9
There’s an Ethiopian Proverb which also echoes that Truth:
“He who conceals his disease cannot expect to be cured.”
Admitting we have a problem is the cliché beginning point.
Growing a harmful, self-destructive nose of our chosen addictions can only lead
to a dead end.
God is for us, not against us (Romans 8:31). But He
works best with our willing honesty. It can be brutal, embarrassing and laced
with all kinds of fears.
But God is a healing, redemptive God.
And like Pinocchio, He wants to turn our healing from fake to
real.
The challenge lies within our Pinocchio selves. Will we let
Him do just that? Will we stop telling the harmful lies which make our
self-destructive choices grow?
Copyright © 2016 by
Sheryle Cruse
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