Are you a
“cutter” and don’t even know it?
Self-injury,
largely through the behavior of “cutting,” is often experienced, in tandem with
disordered eating.
But, I am
putting it out there, that almost all of us are affected with this harmful
condition in one way or another. Sound like an exaggeration?
How else do
you explain the many self-inflicted, tormenting thoughts, words or deeds we
engage in, on a daily basis.
Have you ever been on a diet? Have
you ever said to yourself or others, “I’m too fat?”
I have come
across many young people who are “cutters.” They often use razor blades and any
sharp instrument for bloodletting. I have also seen, unfortunately, some
graphic images of females taking scissors and knives to themselves, trying to
cut their self-determined fat away from their bodies.
And, in the
diet/fitness industries, doesn’t this sound like that exact language used to
sell their products?
“Trim inches;” “Cut calories;” “Shed
excess pounds...”
We don’t see
knives or scissors, but the cutting away sentiment is there, all the same.
Furthermore,
it speaks to a more sinister aspect of this “removal,” beyond the punishment of
body weight and tissue. The dangerous promise asserts its goal: to cut away the
pain.
And this
leads me back to my initial premise: this “self-injury” is experienced by most
of us, in thought, word or deed.
We think we’re too much or not enough
of (fill in the blank).
We state our unworthiness, our
inherent need to be rejected based on our physicality or anything falling under
that domain.
We take action, often desperate,
Machiavellian action (i.e.: the crash diet, the vomiting, the laxatives, the
complete starvation) to achieve the cut away goal.
We do this
because we believe certain things about ourselves and our value.
“For where your treasure is, there will your
heart be also.”
Matthew 6:21; Luke 12:34
Part of
those beliefs embraces our own take on the cutting mentality.
We may never
take a sharp object to ourselves and draw blood. But our attitudes frequently demand
some stripping, some sculpting or some atoning. This is where disordered
eating, image, diet and exercise issues enter.
We believe disappearing and/or
lessening ourselves makes life “better.”
We believe we deserve to be cut
because we are occupying too much space in life.
We need to pay the price. “Sacrifice”
insists things will only be better when we do this.
However,
concerning these dictates, The Most High sees us differently than we see do.
For as much
as sacrifice and repentance are, indeed, in scripture, these tenets are
dramatically different than ANY of our cutting “imaginations.”
“Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that
exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every
thought to the obedience of Christ.”
2 Corinthians 10:5
Scripture
contradicts the torment of the cutting or self-injury mentality. It challenges
us to strip ourselves of any harmful thought because, quite simply, a harmful
thought is not a Divine thought.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my
ways, says the Lord. For as the
heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My
thoughts than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:8-9
“Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any
marks upon you: I [am] the LORD.”
Indeed, Leviticus
19 has less to do with oppressive legalism and more to do with our ultimate
loving Father not wanting us to hurt ourselves.
“Since you were precious in my sight… I have loved you…”
Isaiah 43:4
And make no
mistake about it, “cutting/self-injury” certainly hurts us, beyond the physical
body.
The harm also
comes in our lack of reverence for our wonderful physical, mental and spiritual
vessels...
“What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost [which
is] in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?”
1 Corinthians 6:19
1 Corinthians 6:19
Diet and any
other punishing equivalent equal desecration, ergo, vandalism of the Temple. We
would believe it to be a despicable thing to, for instance, go into a house of
worship, destroying its contents.
How much
more, then, is it horrifying and heartbreaking for us to destroy, essentially,
ourselves?
We need to cut
away the lies we’ve learned and convinced ourselves of over the years. We need
to cut away the severe self-punishment, banishment, isolation and demands with
which we place upon ourselves, all in the name of achieving some idolatrous
image.
Yes,
“cutting” and all manner of “self-injury” are, indeed, real conditions. Discussing
the broad range of self- destructive tendencies does not minimize this painful
reality.
Rather,
promoting awareness illustrates just how far our harmful dysfunctions can
extend in each of us, if we’re not cognizant of that destroying potential.
And it’s a
further reminder to not confuse the will and desire of our Creator. The
Almighty does not wish to hurt us...
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the
Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11
His thoughts-
and His love for us- include no “self-harm.”
Copyright © 2019 by
Sheryle Cruse
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