Tuesday, November 27, 2018

The Teacher is Silent




Recovery-from much of anything- is often not done in the steady hum of encouragement. It’s frequently done in intimidating quiet. Even with support groups, sponsors, treatment centers, churches and any number of “support structures,” we are still left with our true selves. And, no matter what affirmations we have heard and learned, we alone are left to apply them. There is no uplifting outside cheerleader. There is just our decision.

I know this comes across as negative, especially concerning “the Higher Power” factor.

As a person of faith, I’m not dismissing the role The Most High plays. Rather, I see how the Divine shows up in disguised forms, one of those being the unanswered quiet.

Years ago, I heard a statement which rocked my own recovery:

“When the student is taking the test, the teacher is silent.”

This went in tandem with my therapist’s advice; my recovery progress would not go unchallenged. I had to be prepared for any person’s “change back” attitudes.

“When a person does not accept your ‘no,’ they’re trying to control you.”

(Advice given from a self-defense expert, instructing females on their attackers’ viewpoints)

My “No” response has often not been accepted. Indeed, as I have worked to form and keep healthy boundaries, I have had to directly shut down my people pleaser nature and hold firm in the face of that negativity.

All you need to say is simply ‘Yes’ or ‘No’; anything beyond this comes from the evil one.”

Matthew 5:37

Not surprisingly, “the people” on the other end of my response are usually not pleased. Therefore, they have tried to cajole, insult, threaten or force me to change my response to their preferred “yes.”

And, when I do not do this, this situation becomes even more awkward. It is a “silent teacher/student-taking-test” dynamic going on. That uncomfortable silence can often prompt a temptation for me to give in, but I need to remind myself if I do this, it violates me and sends the message to the other person: “I can be manipulated.”

And I do not wish to return to the harmful place from which I came.

For, in the past, certain family members of mine have attempted to shame me when I did not do things their way. They asserted I was brainwashed, forgetting where I came from.

But, many of these same individuals are currently locked in some abusive or addictive state. I am not saying this to condemn, rather, to illustrate how difficult it is to create health from a diseased state of being. These individuals have known about the dysfunction which is the family reality. And they choose how they respond concerning those facts.

Some have chosen to continue the harmful behaviors. They believe their loyalty to the unhealthy pattern must be prized and protected, even to the detriment of another person’s- or their own- well-being. To do anything beyond that, then, is ruled to be unrealistic, arrogant, and yes, disloyal.
Therefore, because of that unhealthy existing family dynamic, my more unfamiliar, uncomfortable approach to it needs to happen all the more. I cannot control others’ lifestyle choices. However, I do have some control of mine.

And that is also part of the student’s silent test: learning what one is- and is not- responsible for.

Part of my family’s toxic belief system also asserts there are some individuals who are not to be held accountable for their destructive behaviors, while, at the same time, there are other designated family members who are to be overly responsible caregivers and rescuers, making the unhealthy situation “okay” somehow.

Concerning my family member’s responses to my “no/boundary-focused” stance, they often do not expect that. They are convinced I will cave to their whims. And, I’ve heard it said you can tell a lot about who a person is when they get that “no” for an answer.

Personal experience-wise, what I have surmised is that family reaction is often straight-up anger.

“Do not befriend a hot-tempered man, and do not associate with one who harbors anger. Lest you learn his ways, and ensnare your soul.”

Proverbs 22:24-25

That’s not a surprise to me. After all, there are honestly very few people in this world who enjoy being told “no” when they’d rather experience a “yes.” That’s human.

We want what we want when we want it.

But, the problem comes in when an agenda to use coercion, shame or brutal force surfaces as the “logical and reasonable” response. It negates the validity of the person who just answered no. It reiterates that person has no such right TO that word.

But, again...

All you need to say is simply ‘Yes’ or ‘No’; anything beyond this comes from the evil one.”

Matthew 5:37

Unfortunately, my experience with certain individuals has shown me there is no room for their understanding of anyone’s fundamental right to say “no” on any topic whatsoever. There is an impasse and little can be done concerning it.

More importantly, it’s not my responsibility to FIX this. Personal accountability applies to all.

Proverbs 19:19, therefore, has frequently sprung to my mind as it relates to my own navigation within these less-than-ideal family constraints.

“A person with great anger bears the penalty; if you rescue him, you'll have to do it again.”

When it comes to giving in to the person expecting/demanding my yes which could be harmful to me in any way, “...you'll have to do it again.”

And, guess what? Concerning my recovery process, I do not want to do that.

Dealing with someone else’s disappointed anger is yet another “silent teacher/test-taking student” moment. I have no cheerleaders with megaphones, giving me an “Atta girl!”

I need to do that by myself in that quiet, awkward space of the truthful moment. It is not easy; it is not fun. But it is recovery work, nonetheless.

Do I wish things were different? Sure.

But, regardless of how things are now, I still must navigate. Each person is given free will to decide what he/she chooses. And some choose disease.

So, once I know that, their choice must not sway mine. And that is why I find my encouragement here:

 “And he took courage and rebuilt all the wall that had been broken down and erected towers on it, and built another outside wall and strengthened... and made weapons and shields in great number.”

2 Chronicles 32:5

To me, the recovery work principle is, indeed, found within this least likely scripture.

But we are all in process, on a recovery continuum, taking tests and learning how to simply be. We need tools, mechanisms, safe havens and power-fused words, like that of “no.”l We need to know our recovery is too important- WE are too important- to sacrifice health for disease in whatever dangerous, quiet moments are presented to us.

Be encouraged, dear student, as you take your next test.

Copyright © 2018 by Sheryle Cruse


Haunted at the Holidays




“Boo!” Scare you?

During the holiday season, Charles Dickens returns to the forefront of our thinking, through his classic work, “A Christmas Carol.” Numerous adaptations have been created on film and television over the years. We usually see at least one version at some point during this season. It’s a literary way of checking our life reflection temperature. Where are we? Can we do better? What do we need to change in our lives?

And this hinges largely upon the presence of ghosts. Not just for Halloween any longer. Nope. Indeed, one of the biggest elements of “A Christmas Carol” is the interplay between the miser, Ebenezer Scrooge and the three ghosts, setting up an “intervention” with him, concerning his life choices and mistakes. Yes, these three ghosts, representing Christmas Past, Christmas Present and Christmas Future, all challenge Scrooge (and us) to examine the state of our unique, individual hearts in our daily lives. 
Each one of us is ultimately called to be mindful of the past, present and future, not to be overwhelmed and oppressed by any of it, but rather, to become better, more loving, more fully ourselves through revelation of our daily choices and priorities.

Yes, it’s quite a challenge. Most of us fear it and run away from it, in some way, at some point. Regrets, painful mistakes, loss and personal imperfection may make us feel we’re only haunted and doomed to fail. It’s especially amplified and lonely this time of year, when self-reflection shows us things we don’t want to see.

So, which ghost haunts you the most these days: Past, Present or Future? Is the past haunting you with either glory days no longer visibly felt or tragic heartaches which continue to haunt you into your current life? Is your ghost of the present taunting you with the perception-as-reality picture of discontentment, disappointment and failed potential? And how about that ghost of the future? Is it intimidating you with a bleak, impossible and/or loveless, joyless round of days to come? And now, to top it all off, add your recovery process, with all of its setbacks, failures and challenges. How haunted are you now?

Are you crying, “Bah Humbug?” How scary is your ghost story?  

It’s not hopeless for you. These aren’t the only “spirits” at work. Wherever you are- in life, in issues, in pain, in recovery- The Most High is a Spirit hovering over you right now. We need to go to Him, then, with our truth regarding our past, our present and our future (John 4:24).

Like Ebenezer Scrooge, we need to say “yes” to what His Spirit has to teach each of us. He knows all about us, about our current situations, every bit of our past, present and future circumstances:

Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.”

Psalm 139: 7-10

We all live imperfect lives, filled with imperfect choices. He knows this and loves us the entire time. Look at this season, not as a time to be condemned or haunted by ghosts, but rather, like Scrooge, let this be a time of renewal, hope and reconciliation. The past, present and future, in The Most High’s Hands, can be used, indeed, to bless and prosper you.

“For I know the plans I have for you... plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Jeremiah 29:11


It can be hard to remember that. We’re challenged by emotional, familial or addiction-related stress just to name a few options, complicated by our recovery challenges. Maybe we even think we’ll get around to truly celebrating Him when this or that issue in our lives is better or when we’re perfectly recovered. We can find ourselves waiting a lon-n-n-ng time, can’t we? Perfect recovery? There doesn’t seem to be such a thing with an imperfect human being, like you and I, at the helm. Recovery never promised it would be pain-free, neat, tidy or ghost free. It’s imperfect day by day, step by step.

But isn’t that the best time, the best reason for Jesus? When we’re less than perfect, less than pulled together, less than healthy or serene? Isn’t an imperfect day the best time to reach for Someone Who truly gets it- and us? After all…

On hearing this, Jesus said, ‘It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.’”

Matthew 9:12

Further adding, in fact, “…I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’"

Mark 2:17

Are you haunted by your ghosts? 

 Could it, indeed, be The Most High calling you to a better, condemnation-free life? It is possible. It’s not based on your strength; it’s based on His love and grace.

“But He said to me, ‘My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness.’ Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest upon me!" 

2 Corinthians 12: 9



Copyright © 2018 by Sheryle Cruse










Stress, depression and the holidays: 10 tips for coping




Stress and depression can ruin your holidays and hurt your health. Being realistic, planning ahead and seeking support can help ward off stress and depression.


The holiday season, which begins for most Americans with Thanksgiving and continues through New Year's Day, often brings unwelcome guests — stress and depression. And it's no wonder. In an effort to pull off a perfect holiday, you might find yourself facing a dizzying array of demands — parties, shopping, baking, cleaning and entertaining, to name a few. So much for peace and joy, right?

Actually, with some practical tips, you can minimize the stress and depression that often accompany the holidays. You may even end up enjoying the holidays more than you thought you would.

Recognize holiday triggers

Learn to recognize common holiday triggers, so you can disarm them before they lead to a meltdown:

§  Relationships. Relationships can cause turmoil, conflict or stress at any time, but tensions are often heightened during the holidays. Family misunderstandings and conflicts can intensify — especially if you're thrust together for several days. On the other hand, facing the holidays without a loved one can be tough and leave you feeling lonely and sad.

§  Finances. With the added expenses of gifts, travel, food and entertainment, the holidays can put a strain on your budget — and your peace of mind. Not to mention that overspending now can mean financial worries for months to come.

§  Physical demands. Even die-hard holiday enthusiasts may find that the extra shopping and socializing can leave them wiped out. Being exhausted increases your stress, creating a vicious cycle. Exercise and sleep — good antidotes for stress and fatigue — may take a back seat to chores and errands. To top it off, burning the wick at both ends makes you more susceptible to colds and other unwelcome guests.

Tips to prevent holiday stress and depression

When stress is at its peak, it's hard to stop and regroup. Try to prevent stress and depression in the first place, especially if the holidays have taken an emotional toll on you in the past.

1.    Acknowledge your feelings. If someone close to you has recently died or you can't be with loved ones, realize that it's normal to feel sadness and grief. It's OK to take time to cry or express your feelings. You can't force yourself to be happy just because it's the holiday season.

2.    Reach out. If you feel lonely or isolated, seek out community, religious or other social events. They can offer support and companionship. Volunteering your time to help others also is a good way to lift your spirits and broaden your friendships.

3.    Be realistic. The holidays don't have to be perfect or just like last year. As families change and grow, traditions and rituals often change as well. Choose a few to hold on to, and be open to creating new ones. For example, if your adult children can't come to your house, find new ways to celebrate together, such as sharing pictures, emails or videotapes.

4.    Set aside differences. Try to accept family members and friends as they are, even if they don't live up to all your expectations. Set aside grievances until a more appropriate time for discussion. And be understanding if others get upset or distressed when something goes awry. Chances are they're feeling the effects of holiday stress and depression too.

5.    Stick to a budget. Before you go gift and food shopping, decide how much money you can afford to spend. Then stick to your budget. Don't try to buy happiness with an avalanche of gifts. Try these alternatives: Donate to a charity in someone's name, give homemade gifts or start a family gift exchange.

6.    Plan ahead. Set aside specific days for shopping, baking, visiting friends and other activities. Plan your menus and then make your shopping list. That'll help prevent last-minute scrambling to buy forgotten ingredients. And make sure to line up help for party prep and cleanup.

7.    Learn to say no. Saying yes when you should say no can leave you feeling resentful and overwhelmed. Friends and colleagues will understand if you can't participate in every project or activity. If it's not possible to say no when your boss asks you to work overtime, try to remove something else from your agenda to make up for the lost time.

8.    Don't abandon healthy habits. Don't let the holidays become a free-for-all. Overindulgence only adds to your stress and guilt. Have a healthy snack before holiday parties so that you don't go overboard on sweets, cheese or drinks. Continue to get plenty of sleep and physical activity.

9.    Take a breather. Make some time for yourself. Spending just 15 minutes alone, without distractions, may refresh you enough to handle everything you need to do. Take a walk at night and stargaze. Listen to soothing music. Find something that reduces stress by clearing your mind, slowing your breathing and restoring inner calm.

10. Seek professional help if you need it. Despite your best efforts, you may find yourself feeling persistently sad or anxious, plagued by physical complaints, unable to sleep, irritable and hopeless, and unable to face routine chores. If these feelings last for a while, talk to your doctor or a mental health professional.

Take control of the holidays

Don't let the holidays become something you dread. Instead, take steps to prevent the stress and depression that can descend during the holidays. With a little planning and some positive thinking, you may find that you enjoy the holidays this year more than you thought you could.



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Thursday, November 22, 2018

Stuffed Chipmunk




“In everything give thanks…”

1 Thessalonians 5:18

The internet does it again. I came across this little guy and immediately thought of Thanksgiving…

“When you’ve started eating and someone starts praying…”


And I caught myself red handed, or, at least, full-mouthed.

Ah, the apparent dignity and beauty of human nature right here, everybody.

This time of year, as we fully get the holidays- the food holidays- underway, it’s all too easy to focus on that enormous array of food choices, to the exclusion of gratitude. Turkey, pumpkin pie, cranberry sauce, mashed potatoes and stuffing all too often persuade us to shove our mouths with food long before the thought of saying grace and acknowledging God comes into play. Suddenly, before we know it, if we’re completely mindless and indulgent, everyone has puffed out cheeks and no one is spitting out a “thank you, God.”

“We give praise and thanks to You, O God, we praise and give thanks; Your wondrous works declare that Your Name is near and they who invoke Your Name rehearse Your wonders.”

Psalm 75: 1

In reality, if only…

And none of us look as cute as the internet chipmunk. We look selfish, greedy and ridiculous.

Happy Thanksgiving.

I understand the principle that, perhaps, one is not responsible for something until they know it. One of my favorite quotes is from Dr. Maya Angelou: “When you know better, you do better.”

And that is precisely the point concerning the Thanksgiving Day concept; we all know better. Indeed, the “thanks” is built into the name of the holiday. We all “know better,” translation, we know we should be thankful for the blessings in our lives. But, do we honestly “do better” with that knowledge, translation, that expression of thanks to God personally?

“I will bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth.”

Psalm 34:1



Eh…

Now, before you think I’m only pointing my finger at you, please keep in mind I also have four aiming right back at me. And, I know there are many of us out there, affected by all matter of addictions and disorders with many temptations distracting us from saying authentic grace. I know each of us has that weakness, that craving, maybe even that “downfall.”

 Still, that should not completely eclipse our capacity for gratitude. How about being grateful for the numerous ways God has mercifully kept and spared us, in spite of us?

 “Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
       for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning;
       great is your faithfulness.”

Lamentations 3:22-23

“I will mention the lovingkindnesses of the LORD, and the praises of the LORD, according to all that the LORD hath bestowed on us, and the great goodness toward the house of Israel, which he hath bestowed on them according to his mercies, and according to the multitude of his lovingkindnesses.”

Isaiah 63:7

Again, I’m preaching this to my whiny chipmunk self as much as I am to anyone else.

Yes, there are challenges, horrible, painful things which can befall us. That still doesn’t change the reality that, in one way or another, we have experienced God’s grace and mercy. And that should prompt at least the occasional thought, causing us to stop and reflect on the reality check blessings we bask in, on any given day.

Thanksgiving should be that ideal setting, right?

What if we took a few seconds to stop and reflect, before our mouths are full? What if we did say- and mean- “thank you?”

What if we weren’t stuffed chipmunks?

“I will praise the LORD according to his righteousness: and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high.”

Psalm 7:17

All right. Now we can eat.

Copyright © 2018 by Sheryle Cruse




Wednesday, November 21, 2018

HALT


The H.A.L.T. Stop Sign


 I practice an effective recovery tool: “H.A.L.T.”

Its simple wisdom deals our response toward addiction, compulsion and disorder:

“Don’t let yourself become too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired.”

There are positive results there, just in the physical realm alone.

But, if we go deeper, we also see the spiritual relevance behind that acronym. It addresses our tricky heart condition.

“For what I am doing, I do not understand...”

Romans 7:15

H.A.L.T. counsels, “Stop” when our addictive nature screams, “Go full speed ahead!”

Pausing to spell the letters- and heed the advice- can give us the time to process what, exactly, is threatening to run amuck in our lives.

First, There is Hungry...

Why we use- anything- goes beyond the life sustenance element. It is not about being physically famished.

Rather, there are unexpressed, unmet needs: spiritual, emotional and mental. These punishing drives make their demands.

“Don’t let yourself become too hungry...”

Hunger #1: Meaning:

Ecclesiastes notes the challenges rising against personal meaning, mainly, from that of life itself.

 “I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all is vanity and vexation of spirit.”

Ecclesiastes 1:14

“So I hated life, for the work which had been done under the sun was grievous to me; because everything is futility and striving after wind.”

Ecclesiastes 2:17

Yeah, it can be quite difficult to find a point- to anything. Forget about one’s personal significance!

Scripture, however, thankfully, does not stop with those musings. Our Divine Creator has had other ideas about our value.

 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9

We are intrinsically valuable; and the times we need to remember that the most are in those temptation moments.

But we’re not done with the gnawing Hunger yet.

Hunger #2: Entertainment:

Here is where we confront boredom and our wish to be appeased with pleasure.

 “Ye have lived in pleasure on the earth, and been wanton...”

James 5:5

This hunger falls right into addiction’s mindset. And it got its start early.

And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat.”

Genesis 3:6

The classic over-promise of a pleasure dangles before our minds, already filled with unmet needs and a sense of denied longings. The “tempting apple,” therefore, reassures us we will be fulfilled and freed from all of life’s unpleasant circumstances if we partake of it.

Yet, here is the reality...

 “For what pleasure hath he in his house after him, when the number of his months is cut off in the midst?”

Job 21:21

Destruction, in addiction’s pursuit, inevitably, comes to us.

We are hungry for the Divine; it’s hard-wired into each of us.

However, we often choose to superimpose our chosen addiction resource where the true Source should be. We all do it.

If we’re honest with ourselves, we’d rather have the instantaneous option instead of the delayed gratification, character-building and lifestyle- changing challenge of the Most High’s influence in our lives.

Yet, the lasting, rewarding, life-affirming/sustaining benefits come from only one direction: the Divine.

 “Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.”

Psalms 16:11

We need to recognize pleasure- seeking is distraction- seeking. And this prevents and/or destroys health, healing and well-being.

Hunger #3: Love:

And of course, we’d be remiss if we did not look at, perhaps, the most powerful kind of hunger, a desire for love.

“I have chosen you and have not cast you away.”

Isaiah 41:9

"Since thou is precious in my sight... I have loved thee..."
Isaiah 43:4

How many of us crave to hear, feel and experience those scriptures?

How many of us, sadly, are left wanting?

"When my father and my mother forsake me..."
Psalm 27:10

Here’s where we tap into the unmet need/conditional love/abuse reality too many of us, unfortunately, have survived.

We cannot deny it; we are hungry for safe, nurturing verbal, physical and mental expressions of an unconditional love which never disqualify our value, importance and loveable natures.

But life is not ideal. It’s flawed, pain-filled and rife with soul-testing situations.

And those situations can reinforce identity lies and value theories. You probably recognize some of them in your own life.

“You’re a mistake!”

“I wish you were never born!”

“You’re stupid!”

“You’ll never amount to anything!”

“I never wanted you in the first place!”

“I don’t love you!”

Any of these examples are excruciating enough to hear.

But, unfortunately, their pain often also translates into an equal difficulty for us to hear or accept anything contrary to those statements.

And that includes the unconditional love decrees of the Divine.

 “The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, ‘Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.’”

                                                             Jeremiah 31:3             

"...‘I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.’"
Hebrews 13:5


If we do not or cannot know or accept those Truths for ourselves, we then reach for a version of our own accepting, loving substitute to comfort us. Here come the addictions and disorders which promise to nurture, protect, free and deliver us from all demons and ghosts.

But, again, they are imperfect, failing substitutes. They do not satisfy hunger and they do not love us. There is only One Who can do that.

 “For he satisfieth the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness.”

Psalms 107:9

So, the hunger element vies for our attention. That, in and of itself, is enough to contend with.

But we are far from done here. We still have more spelling of H.A.L.T. to do.

Angry:

“Then said the LORD, ‘Doest thou well to be angry?’”

John 4:4

Anger is a human emotion. Nothing can cancel that reality.

Unfortunately, we have believed a harmful lie; it is a sin to be angry.

Scripture, however, addresses anger, quite directly...

 “Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath.”

Ephesians 4:26

Ephesians acknowledges we have anger. Yet, it doesn’t just leave us unattended there, with that anger.

 Rather, it cautions us with a useful reality check:

 Don’t wreck things (sin) by stewing in it.

We all know the cliché marital advice, “Don’t go to bed angry.” It’s adorable. The cute couple having the cute lovebird spat.

Yet there is wisdom there, should we choose to embrace it.

“He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city.”

Proverbs 16:32

Anger’s presence does not denote we are evil creatures. Again, human beings will be angry. But what we do in/with that anger is another matter.

This taps into our addictive natures, our expression and/or repression of our experiences and behaviors. And it begs the question...

“...‘Doest thou well to be angry?’”

John 4:4

So, just what is this thing, called our anger, anyway?

One definition states it is a combination of three components: fear, hurt and frustration.

 Therefore, when we say “I’m angry,” these three expressions are its prominent evidence.

“Don’t let yourself become too angry...”

Anger #1: Fear:

This element seems to be the most primal. Its existence stems from self-preservation.

Fear, at its most basic, keeps us alive.

It is here where we approach adrenaline, our “fight or flight” responses. And it is here where things can become more complex and even harmful.

“Fear and a snare is come upon us, desolation and destruction.”

Lamentations 3:47

For, in many of our backgrounds, there have been overtaxed adrenal glands, rapid firing “fight or flight.” This is in response to stressful circumstances, depleted our coping resources with an equally depleting message, blaring, “Danger! Unsafe!” The message can be to such things as poverty, abuse, abandonment or any other trauma. These reactions can be considered to be “snares.”

And if/when all we hear and absorb is “danger,” eventually we will learn to fear.

"Will the Lord cast off forever? And will he be favorable no more?"
Psalm 77:7

Anxiety, therefore, places us in a state in which we will do anything to avoid or escape that perceived danger.

“Therefore snares are round about thee, and sudden fear troubleth thee.”

Job 22:10

And yes, scripture responds with reassurances; repeatedly, we are told not to fear.

“Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.”

Joshua 1:9

 “...‘Be not afraid, only believe.’”

Mark 5:36

 “...‘Fear not: believe only...’”.

Luke 8:50

We are encouraged to believe the Most High, at His Word...

 “What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.”

Psalms 56:3

However, you and I know this is easier said than done.

For, at least in the short term, it is more accessible to rely on our addiction, disorder or compulsion. These things are already there for us to see, grab and use.

Trusting in a “Higher Power,” however, is the much more difficult work of faith, on believing that which is not three-dimensionally experienced, here and now.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

Hebrews 11:1

Therefore, because of this challenge, uneasily mixed with our anxieties and our longings for immediate relief, we respond in an angry mode. We are afraid and want to self-protect from encroaching danger.

Sometimes, we lash out using our addictions.

Anger #2: Hurt

This behavior can further spill into the hurt aspect of anger.

"When my father and my mother forsake me..."
Psalm 27:10

“A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.”

Proverbs 15:1

Indeed, hurt, rejection and grievous words all emanate from a particular place found within our wounds.

“The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; but a wounded spirit who can bear?”

Proverbs 18:14

The initial occurrence of wounding can take minutes or even seconds to happen. Yet, the ramifications exist for much longer.

Now there is the aftermath; now there is the painful coping process, which attempts to forget, heal, undo and repair.

“Why is my pain perpetual, and my wound incurable, which refuseth to be healed?...”

Jeremiah 15:18

And, most often, that process is further met with obstacles, additional hurt, discouragement and hopelessness.

"Will the Lord cast off forever? And will he be favorable no more?"
Psalm 77:7

It is here where we are drawn to anything which claims to “kill the pain.”

We are miserable. And, it’s not too long before we leap from this personal misery place to a desire/decision to become obliterated in any sense of the word, often, via our addictions. This is the human responses as we try, in vain, to answer our “why questions.”

Why did this happen to me?

Why was I abused?

Why was I left alone?

Operating from the legitimate place of righteous anger, having been violated in our lives, we are angry. Therefore, we often determine to seek vengeance and change the circumstances until they make sense.

However, most of the time, when we do that, we rarely experience the satisfying result we desire.

That is largely because we were never designed to fulfill that role.

 “Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves… for it is written, ‘Vengeance is mine; I will repay, ‘saith the Lord. Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head. Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:19-21

That directive feels far from satisfying. But the unflinching Truth is we don’t know why things happen. Still, there is a larger purpose and, despite our human experiences, a lasting importance to each of us.

And, although it may not instantly “cure” every hurt we go through, there is help from our Creator; there is love.

If we look at Psalm 27:10 more closely, we can see the Divine response to a human action/failing which touches us. It goes beyond our parents.

"When my father and my mother forsake me..."

We can also insert anyone or anything else which abandons us.

Indeed, when we are hurt by anyone or anything, the supernatural reaction is in effect...

"... then the LORD will take me up."
Psalm 27:10

It is the reliable response from the reliable Source.

 “He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions.”

Psalms 107:20

By practicing the “A” of “H.A.L.T.,” we, perhaps, can give ourselves that opportunity.

Regardless, we are still not finished spelling the “A” in “Angry.”

Anger #3: Frustration:

I’ve heard the definition of anger is a blocked wish.

"Will the Lord cast off forever? And will he be favorable no more?"
Psalm 77:7

And yes, here is the domain of frustration...

“For we are consumed by thine anger, and by thy wrath are we troubled.”

Psalm 90:7

It is quite a challenge to determine where one anger element begins and another ends. They bleed into one another.

And with Frustration, this is especially in effect. This is the reaction to a perceived blocked wish.

The blocked wish of feeling loved, safe, secure and protected...

The blocked wish of feeling free from inflicted pain, of feeling unsaddled with another’s harmful baggage...

The blocked wish of feeling incapable, strained and desperate as one attempts to cope with the encumbered life experience which includes generational realities of addiction, dysfunction and abuse...

So, with the buildup of all of these situations, it is inevitable there will be a breaking point. Full-blown addiction can be just one manifestation to this “blocked wish.”

Nevertheless, we need to acknowledge and deal with this reality in as healthy a manner as possible.

And again, Divine Providence has provided cautionary wisdom to guide our human responses...

“Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath.”

James 1:19

I know. This is so much easier said than practiced, than lived. But, nevertheless, it is possible.

Scripture points to the “fruit of the spirit” to inform us we have been equipped for such moments...

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.”

Galatians 5:22-23

We have the capability to stop and not express anger in its most explosive state. H.A.L.T. can be a useful tool.

“Don’t let yourself become too angry...”

And the strong subtext in that statement is ‘Don’t lash out on others- or yourself- via self-destructive behavior.’ You and I can make another choice in that moment, even when it’s an angry moment.

And yes, that also applies to a lonely moment as well.

“Lonely:”

Indeed, the “L” letter of H.A.L.T. touches on our despair.

“...‘The LORD hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me.’”

Isaiah 49:14

We want to escape the feeling of being forsaken and hopeless.

How many benders and binges are done isolated, refusing interaction with any person or outside help?

Loneliness is never far from us. And it comes with its negative consequences.

“...Social isolation impairs immune function and boosts inflammation, which can lead to arthritis, type II diabetes, and heart disease. Loneliness is breaking our hearts, but as a culture we rarely talk about it.

Loneliness has doubled: 40 percent of adults in two recent surveys said they were lonely, up from 20 percent in the 1980s...”

“Loneliness Is Deadly,” By Jessica Olien

Sooner or later, in a moment of crisis, we face the “Lonely” of H.A.L.T.

We are in the valley of decision now.

Do we turn to- or away from- that soothing, attractive and dependable addiction?

Do we refuse any and all other healthier options like attending a meeting or calling someone for help?

Or, do we “white knuckle” until our only recourse is to find comfort in the very thing we know is bad/dangerous/unhealthy for us?

Sometimes, we do buckle under the pressure.

We self-medicate; we try to soothe ourselves. We want companionship and obliteration via our addiction. Through its use, we want to escape and forget our misery, our perception of utter aloneness.

But, the H.A.L.T. option is there regardless. And, that coupled with a spiritual focus can help us to be mindful and remember there is, in fact, hope.

First and foremost, someone has already been there, done that.

Even Our Savior felt the abandoned, temptation-fraught, circumstances, feeling left only to worst possible outcomes...

 “...‘Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?’”

Matthew 27:46; Mark 15:34

Yet, if we stay with the entirety of the account, we find the forsaken “fact” was not the final Word. Divine Promise has reassured us of His constant Presence, even spiting feelings and circumstances.

“... the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

Loneliness, indeed, offers a temptation opportunity in life, presenting our addiction as the sole remedy. So, do we reach out for outside help or shut down, choosing to be alone with our vice?

“H.A.L.T.” offers us a mindful pause to gather ourselves.

 “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go: I will guide you with My eye.”

Psalm 32:8

Before we rush headlong into a destructive option, we can even stop, remember and incorporate the Divine in our spiritual hope...

 “... ‘I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.’”

Hebrews 13:5

Our personal lonely moments, therefore, can become a spiritual experience of growth, help and community.

“Don’t let yourself become too lonely...”

The “H.A.L.T.” ball is in our court.

And yes, inevitably, our vulnerability smacks right into another human reality: we get tired.

Hence, the “T” of “H.A.L.T.” shows up...

Tired:

Whether you want to call it exhausted, spent or weary, it still produces the same result: we hit our limit.

“…Some researchers suggest that sleep deprivation should be recognized with the same seriousness that has been associated with the societal impact of alcohol.”

 “Sleep Habits: More Important Than You Think,” By Michael J. Breus, PhD


It’s that particular information which caught my attention concerning addiction.

Often, we don’t connect the dots between sleep deprivation and our recovery experiences. Lack of sleep makes everything more difficult and fraught with negative outcomes.

Much like “H.AL.T.’s” Lonely “L,” when we are taxed emotionally, mentally and physically, we expose ourselves, even more, to our addictive natures. We are depleted, unable to access the necessary reserves/resources we usually tap into for healthy recovery purposes.

Sleep, refreshed mental, emotional and physical faculties all support the will and the ability to stay with our program.

 Exhaustion, however, often beckons us to choose the self-destructive “path of least resistance.”

In this state, our addiction appears mirage-perfect and all- soothing.

Yet, this still doesn’t change the reality of sleep deprivation’s harmful effects on us.

 Indeed, the health risks, according to Breus’ article, include such negative results as high blood pressure, heart failure, stroke and what is officially listed as “poor quality of life.”

Yes, “being tired” makes healthy choice implementation more difficult and unsuccessful.

With our defenses down, we see no other recourse than to indulge.

We want relief, any relief.

“Don’t let yourself become too tired.”

Spiritually, the H.A.L.T. reminder, should we choose to heed it, reassures us there is Divine assistance offered to us.

“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength...”

 Isaiah 40:28-29

Really? Just somehow, magically, we are going to be comforted, helped AND rested?

Romans 8:28, another well- worn scripture, likewise, feels too idealistic to be relevant...

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

Yet, look at the scriptures following up to that “everything’s gonna turn out okay” sentiment...

Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.”

 Romans 8:26-27

We see how flawed circumstances and our personal frailty, including our addictions, all dovetail into a spiritual, human and relevant truth: the Most High knows us.

He knows us because He created us.

He knows us because He never stopped loving us.

Therefore, He has made it top priority to know exactly when we reach our limits. He knows this information long before we do.

“Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure.”

Isaiah 46:10

And He has a “love-grace-even escape- action plan” for just such a thing called life. Yours and mine.

“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”

Ephesians 2:8-9

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13

And when we blow right through that?

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”

2 Corinthians 12:9

“...where sin abounded, grace did much more abound.”

Romans 5:20

And, come on, how many times have you and I “blown it” because we were exhausted?

Yes, grace is mindboggling and wonderful.

Yet in an imperfect human context, if we also have the tools to increase blessing and decrease destruction, wouldn’t we benefit from implementing those tools?

“Don’t let yourself become too tired.”

 “Being tired,” indeed, is a caution we are more vulnerable to harmful circumstances, including our addictions. Therefore, by heeding the H.A.L.T. signal, we, perhaps, maximize the positive and minimize the negative.

Plus, awareness of our human limitations, once again, reminds us of the grace/imperfect us reality. We are not running the show. We have been granted grace, mercy, allowances and help.

But, in and of ourselves? We are as helpless as a that of a baby bird.

Or, as the first step acknowledges...

“We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable.”

H.A.L.T. is not the end-all, be-all life solution. But it is a helpful, spiritually infused tool if we employ it as such. It works well when it is in conjunction with a full program: spirituality, human support, personal accountability and honest assessments of who and where we are in life.

H.A.L.T. can be a life-affirming, life-changing Stop sign.

But, ultimately, we choose whether or not we stop for it.

Copyright © 2018 by Sheryle Cruse