Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Too Tight To Breathe?

Ah, here we go, sucking it in.



Scarlett O’Hara, the legendary fictional character has been where most of us girls have gone, at one time or another. Although we’re probably not grabbing onto a bedpost for dear life, like she is here, trying to squeeze into an article of clothing, it’s still the same concept. We’re gonna “suffer” for beauty’s sake.

So, that may mean, weighing, measuring- ourselves and our food- dieting, exercising, getting girlfriends’ help to shove us into some specific form or size.

Has it been too tight for you to breathe lately? Have you given yourself “permission” to be? To be the real you? As is? Right now? Can you and I breathe as ourselves, right where we are?

The fact is, a certain “beauty” look pales against the real us, anyway. Most of us, who’ve shimmied into some big event dress: prom, wedding, “sweet sixteen” have encountered some discomfort, paying the price to be beautiful. And why? Usually, it’s to win someone else’s opinion. Check out this blurb about 1800’s corsets. Sound familiar? We may not have wriggled into a corset lately, but how about some “skinny jeans? A swimsuit, maybe?

“…The corset sculpted solid flesh and enabled the plump and rosy to transform into the popular romantic ideals of fragility and delicacy. Victorian women were trying to attract Victorian men, who prized the hourglass figure which few women naturally possess: the up-thrust breasts and rounded hips divided by a tiny circular waist which made them seem both bountiful and childlike, sexual and virginal, and above all controllable, as is suggested by the fetishistic ‘hand span’ waist… Today’s ideal female body - thin, toned, and narrow hipped, with big breasts, is as unlikely to be produced by nature as an hourglass figure with a hand span waist.”

-Theatre Designer/Wardrobe Mistress Amy Broatch, author of “Courtesan”



I’ve talked about one of my favorite scriptures before: “Consider the Lilies,” found in Matthew 6:28-30.

“And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?”

We’re all to breathe and be ourselves, to fulfill our God-given destiny, not some constricting, impossible piece of clothing. So, how about as step one, we breathe as our real selves?

Monday, August 30, 2010

Illusion

Ever played this little brain teaser?



What do you see? An old woman? A young woman? It’s all in how you look at it. How then, are we, in a similar way, choosing to look at our bodies and our lives? Do we see beauty, value and potential? Or do we see ugliness, worthlessness and a pointless existence? We can choose.

“I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.”

Deuteronomy 30:19

 
The fact is, just because we feel a certain way, doesn’t mean that’s truly the way it is.


“When I was a child, I spake as a child,

I understood as a child, I thought as a child:

but when I became a man, I put away

childish things. For now we see through a

glass, darkly; but then face to face: now

I know in part; but then shall I know even

as also I am known.”

1 Corinthians 13:11

 
We may feel, ugly, fat, hopeless or stupid, for example. But those are feelings, not the Truth. God’s Word, instead, is the Truth! And yes, once again, here’s what God says about us:


“Since you were precious in my sight… I have loved you…”

—Isaiah 43:4

 
“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made…”

—Psalm 139:14



“I have chosen you and have not cast you away.”

Isaiah 41:9

 
“…being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.”

—Philippians 1:6

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

—Jeremiah 29:11

Let’s take some different looks at ourselves. We may feel we are one way, but why limit ourselves to that, especially if it’s harmful? Why not look at ourselves from God’s perspective. Yes, it’s a “brain teaser” to do so, but, like this puzzle picture here, we’re so, so much more than what we see and fell; God has more for each one of us than just our present situation, perception and condition. Let’s all find out what our potential can be!





Sunday, August 29, 2010

Recommended Books on Eating Disorder Recovery

* “Do I Look Fat In This?” Jessica Weiner (Simon and Schuster)

* “Jane Fonda: My Life So Far” Jane Fonda (Random House)


** “Healthy Habits, Healthy Kids” Gregory L. Jantz, Ph.D. (Revell Books)


** “Help Me, I’m Stressed!” Joyce Meyer (Harrison House)


** “Hope, Help and Healing For Eating Disorders” Gregory L. Jantz, Ph.D. (Shaw Books- WaterBrook Press)

** “In Every Pew Sits A Broken Heart- Hope For the Hurting” Ruth Graham (Zondervan)


** “The Molding of a Champion” Gregory L. Jantz, Ph.D.(New Leaf Press)


* “Room To Grow: An Appetite For Life” Tracey Gold (New Millennium Press)


* “The Secret Language of Eating Disorders” Peggy Claude-Pierre, Director and Co-Founder of the Montreux Clinic (Times Books-Random House)

* “Wise Girl: What I’ve Learned About Life, Love and Loss” Jamie-Lynn Sigler and Sheryl Berk (Pocket Books- Simon and Schuster)


** Christian book
(*Reader Advisory: Contains language or content that may be offensive or graphic.)

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Telling the Ugly Truth= Freedom?

Let me just brag about my wonderful husband. I mention him in my book and every single time I speak on my recovery. I do this because I am so thankful for the rare, endangered species he represents: the unconditionally loving man.

But the fact, mentioned in the book, is this: I was fearful of telling him about my eating disorders and kept it a “secret” until after we were married. He gave me no reason to do this. I just assumed that this ugly truth would drive him away if he knew “the real me.” I felt that the eating disorder stuff was a deal breaker. No guy wants this, right?

Well, I learned I was wrong for withholding the truth from him. Read the book to get the details. But he, by his behavior and actions, showed me the living scripture: “the truth shall set you free” (John 8:32).

“This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.”

John 15:12

How often, in how many relationships, have we underestimated a loving response and exaggerated a worst case scenario? It’s not the end of the world if we tell another person about our eating disorders, addictions and struggles. Often, it opens the door, instead, to freedom. Can you and I dare, just a little bit, to tell the truth and get a little bit freer? We all need to take this dare, day in, day out. Let’s let the truth set us free!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Updating One Sheet

Busy lil bee, I am, updating my one sheet. Brings me back to my high school yearbook editor days. Cropping, editing, design, but no high school drama. Created a few different versions, depending on my mood.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Playing With the Piglets



Yep, here’s little me, playing with a piglet, inside of the house. I used to play with baby pigs all the time. Not exactly a pet kitten or puppy. Still, I was happy; I didn't know any better, after all. Looking at this photo of me, I do see Maya Angelou’s quote, one of my favorite quotes, come to life:

“When you know better, you do better.”

It’s easy to beat ourselves up, isn’t it? We love to play games called “if only” and “I should have.” Hindsight- man, it can really kick our behinds, huh? But God is thinking of you now, looking at you mercifully.

“Many, O LORD my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.”

Psalms 40:5

“Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,

for his compassions never fail.They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.”

Lamentations 3:22-23

Regret is painful and potentially crippling. Perhaps, you’re regretting past actions that have lingering consequences. Perhaps your regrets involve consequences from addiction/eating disorder/toxic relationship choices. Maybe you feel that you need to “pay” for your sins; maybe you feel that deserve no mercy, especially from God. But, no matter what you’ve done or haven’t done, God loves you as His child, looking for you as the Father waiting for the Prodigal Son. Look at Luke 15:11-24:

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.

"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[a]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

You may not have ever physically played with or hung out with piglets, but you could still find yourself in a pig pen, a place of shame now, a place that God wants you to leave. Don’t wallow in the mire; come to God, your loving Father, instead. Come to Him, regardless of your state, your past and your mistakes. God hasn’t called you to live there; He wants you to live in His Love and Grace. No, you may not have “known better” then, but you can know God and do better in your life now. God’s helping you and will continue to help you.

Let’s stop playing with the pigs and let’s live for God instead! Indeed, knowing God, we will know AND DO better in our lives!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Whoo Hoo!!!! Proposal emailed!!!

Proposal emailed!!!! Hallelujah!!!! And I didn't short out out toaster or microwave, in the process.

Bit By Bit (From Glory To Glory)

I’ve been preparing and gathering a book proposal for submission. And yes, I ran into my friend, technology, yet again. Nowadays, submissions are sent by email attachments, not by “snail mail.” Everything’s faster now. It’s presumed that if it’s sent by email, it’s lickety split in getting to its destination. Not so fast!

I’m having some challenges sending my proposal, even divided into small files, via this quick, easy email. Still, my attachments have been noted as being “too large.” I have to tinker with the email to get everything to the publisher. It’s “bit by bit.”

Anyway, this reminded me of 2 Corinthians 3:18, talking about the process of “from glory to glory.”

"But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord."



2 Corinthians 3:18

Same thing, whether applying to emails or eating disorders? Maybe.

Recovery is defined largely as a process, not a one-time event. And yes, we’d love to be “cured” lickety split;” the reality, however, of this gradual, day to day process, leaves us feeling frustrated, impatient, and even like failures. We determine that we “should” have it all wrapped up and figured out. But, like these blasted email attachments today, it is slower, bit by bit, like the snail.



“By perseverance the snail reached the ark.”

Charles H. Spurgeon

I love that quote; it helps, day in day out. So, where are you, bit by bit? Are you frustrated, trying to recover “all at once?” Just because you don’t see the results you think you “should” see, doesn’t mean that you’re not healing. It’s happening, because God is too good and loves you too much for you to remain the same. You’re getting there, bit by bit…

Saturday, August 21, 2010

A Bad Fall

When I was about twelve, I had a bad fall incident. It was a Minnesota winter- one of THOSE winters! I was running late for the school bus, so late that I built up enough speed to not only fall on the ice, but SLIDE partly under the bus as well! Beautiful! And oh, so safe and dignifying! Because there’s nothing preteen girls love more than a preteen and teen audience witnessing your moment of impact with nature’s ice rink!

Anyhoo, my point is this: embarrassing falls happen. They can be the literal fall of, for instance, missing a step or curb or slipping on a patch of ice. Or they can be spiritual or emotional falls, in which something horrible happened that devastated you, like a severed relationship, a communication mishap, or feeling isolated and estranged because of circumstances that were out of your control.

And then, there’s the fall of “relapse.” Nothing can make a person feel more like a worthless failure than relapse. You feel defeated, hopeless, weak, a failure. You somehow reason that you’re the one lone person in the world who failed and can’t sustain recovery. “Everyone else” has got it down; if you were a “better person,” you scream to yourself, you could get it too.

But we all fall:

“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”

Romans 3:23

The fact is, yes, it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo embarrassing when I fell at 12…and 13… and 19… and 23… and 27…and, well, you get the picture… I’ve slid under a lot of buses in my time, had sooooooo many failures, with plenty of onlookers watching.

But life went on; the moment- hellish, embarrassing , defeating- PASSED!

Again, 2 Corinthians 4:18:

“While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen [are] temporal; but the things which are not seen [are] eternal.”

I fell at twelve, was embarrassed, struggled to get up, got up, got on the bus, etc.

And with each fall, each year, whether I felt it was happening or not, I still got up because God was helping me.

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”

Psalms 46:1

God’s helping you too. So, what’s your latest fall? Are you struggling to get up?

Still feel like a worm? Well, how ‘bout this?

“For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again...”

Proverbs 24:16

God’s not mad at you; He’s helping you to get up from your fallen place.



Don’t stay where you fell; that is not your destiny! Your future is your destiny!

Ah, Sophia!






Ah, the beautiful Sophia Loren! Just look at her! Gorgeous! No disputing that! But the beauty isn’t all about features; check the attitude.

“I think the quality of sexiness comes from within. It is something that is in you or it isn't and it really doesn't have much to do with breasts or thighs or the pout of your lips.”

“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.”



“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.”





These are just a few of her quotes on appearance. And they’re worth heeding, because this woman truly practices what she preaches. Doesn’t she radiate beauty and uniqueness? God calls us to radiate who we are, beauty and all! We are so much more than we think we are! Let’s do some radiating!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Some assembly required




So, because our tv went belly up, we got a new one today. And I’m learning all over again: new remote, new features, all kinds of new shiny buttons to make a brain spontaneously combust. I’m not very “techy.”

So, more learning. Sigh. Ain’t that just always the way it goes? Just when ya have one thing handled, boom, here’s a new situation “remote” for ya with strange buttons; have fun figuring it out!

There are always going to be new things, new instructions, wacky twists and turns. And yeah, we’ll wanna throw those things out the window, in our frustration, at times.

One of my favorite scriptures is 2 Corinthians 4:18:

“While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.”

Everything changes; you and I change. And, with each change, “some assembly is required.” But each change brings us to more of who we’re supposed to be. So, grab that remote!

What’s in a Name?




Recently, I was asked to autograph a copy of my book for a charity event. Name… what’s in a name?

Does anorexia or bulimia or ednos- or any other challenge, obstacle or affliction, for that matter, have a stronger name than God to us? God’s Word tells us:

“Our help is in the name of the LORD, who made heaven and earth.”

Psalms 124:8

As we sign our names, as we write our signatures, let’s challenge ourselves to really prioritize the power of names, in relation to the Name of the Most High God. Everything that has a name has to bow to God anyway.

“Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name: That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”

Philippians 2:9-11

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Gracie Says It all to an "ARRRRGGGHHH" Day...

Yep, this photo of Gracie says it all about this particular "arrrghh day."

Doing my best to shout God's Word over the day and its circumstances, through my own share of arrrggghh's.

With feeling,
"I'm Blessed!"
"God's an Amazing God!"
"I can do this!"
"I'm conquering, in spite of the situation!"

I'm gonna find a way to be positive!
Still wanna blow some raspberries today.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!


ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! Ever have one of those days in which that’s all you can say? I have! I’m having one now! Woke up late, our television went kapow, the cats won’t shut up and the phone keeps ringing. Ah, good morning! As I try to keep the lid on myself, from completely going postal, I remember God’s cautionary Word, before I break out the expletives:

“Death and life are in the power of the tongue.”

Proverbs 18:21

Ah, yes, the power of our words. As great as it may feel to let it all rip, we need to remember we have tremendous power to create- or destroy- with those words. God’s not trying to suppress our emotions or expressions; He’s trying to protect us from acting like rash fools all over the place.

He gets it; He knows exactly what’s going on, where we are, what we’re going through. He knows that we’re imperfect. However, we’re not completely incapable of Godly self-control. So, somewhere, tucked up, in the middle of my “ARRRRRRGGGHHH’s,” I’m doing my best to let God’s Word come through them:

“I can do all things, through Christ Jesus, Who strengthens me.”

Philippians 4:13

And yes, if you hear any yelling today, that would probably be me, practicing this principle. Practice makes perfect, right?

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Chasing That Squirrel?

Are we chasing that squirrel?



I love my cat, Gracie. If you encounter me long enough, you'll discover I love my cats, Gracie and Glory, I ooh and ahh over them, just like a newborn baby.

Here's one such case, involving Gracie. A few months ago, she spotted, what I affectionately call our "rooftop squirrel." Hence the following:

video

I bring this video up 1) because I think it's cute and 2) because it reminded me how often we chase after that image, driven to eating disorder lengths- and frustrations- to get it. We look at a size, a weight, a scale number and a thin model and hear ourselves say, like my hubby, to Gracie, "Get it!"

I have, so many times in my life. I'm chasing a squirrel, yet all I get is the screened window.

Can you relate? Are you focused on an eating disorder critter, thinking you'll be able to capture it? Yet, it captures you, doesn't it? The predator becomes the prey? So are we hopeless to charge endless screen windows in vain?

No, I don't think so.

"But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."
1 Corinthians 15:57-58

We're not doomed to chase our ed squirrels; it's not hopeless. We have Jesus, helping us, even in spite of our chasing behaviors.

Gonna take a moment now to "THANK GOD!!!!" It'as a phrase we overuse so much of the time, but really, let's take a moment to THANK HIM and not just say the words. God has better things for us than squirrels in our lives. Let's find out what THOSE critters are, instead!

Work in progress, just like Gracie. Yep, still still looks in that window, from time to time.

Writing/Book Publication “Q & A”

Writing/Book Publication “Q & A”




I’ve been asked about my experience writing “Thin Enough,” as well as the publishing process. Here are some answers to some of those questions.



I think what I would most like to know from you is how you felt during the process of writing your book and then trying to get it published.



Whew! Okay, it’s a long story. The genesis of “T.E” started for me back in 1995; the book was published in 2005. I say this, not to discourage you; I’m not telling you that it will take 10 years to get published, but I mention it so that you won’t set yourself up for further disappointment and frustration, beyond what’s a natural part of the process. Publishing is a long process. From acceptance, to actual product on the shelves, it takes, on average, one year. That’s not necessarily including rewrites either. When this project started in 1995, it began as a performance art piece. Through the next years, it was re-written and shelved at various times. At different points, I “gave up” on it. But it still burned inside of me. It wouldn’t let go. If you have an idea that “will not go away,” pay attention. It’s God, more than likely, trying to get it accomplished through you.



Still, the idea you have now may not be the final product. God showed me through this “T. E.” process that time, events and life experiences had to unfold for me to write about them. Initially, in 1995, I thought it was going to happen “just like that.” Nope! Yes, we want it to happen overnight; it seldom does. But please don’t be discouraged. It has more to do with God’s timing, His work in you. His preparation of your readiness takes time; He needs to prepare BOTH you and the work you’re doing.



Were you overwhelmed?



Oh, yeah!!! I was overwhelmed, frustrated, disappointed, angry, hopeless, you name it! But again, it wasn’t because there was something horrible or worthless about the work. It wasn’t the right time. From 2000 on, I had significant experiences that became a part of the book, including, in example, my dad’s death. There was no way I could rush that process (he passed in 2003). Time and experiences had to unfold in order for me to write about them. Attending writers’ conferences, reading, getting mentoring and advice helped me tremendously. In those settings, I learned about publishers, book proposal preparation, “do’s and don’ts” in the industry, etc.



What was the actual writing process like for you?

Like I said, the project changed over the years. It started as a performance art piece, with dialogue, characters, scenery. If you read my book, most of the poetry at the start of each chapter was what existed, essentially, from the start in 1995. But again, because of life and experiences, I could not write some of the book’s poems until after I went through the experiences. Concerning the writing itself, I drew from my past, my years of diaries and photographs to recount specific events, mentioned in the book.



Around 2002, I presented this rough form to a mentor, who suggested it be a self-help book, rather than a play. At that point, I used these poems as a framework for the chapters and major topics discussed. That required organization of thoughts, more rewrites, editing, editing, editing. Chronological time mapped out the development and documentation of my eating disorders and recovery, focusing on the significant events that triggered each revelation or discussed topic. The best way I can describe it is “the stages.” What happened at each stage replaced the performance art slant to the project.



Get feedback from mentors, writers’ groups and people you trust; it’s important to have another’s perspective of your work. Don’t be afraid of constructive criticism; there will be criticism. These people are your first “audience.” Pay attention to the observations.



When writing- or re-writing, I usually worked no more than two hour at a time, not including “creative surges.” But 2 hours at a time really is the maximum amount of time to focus on writing for me. Beyond that, it’s hard to be fresh; I get quite loopy, honestly. Don’t tire yourself out. This is a marathon, not a sprint. Give your mind enough time to rest and brainstorm ideas. They pop up at the most unlikely times. Write thoughts and ideas as they come and journal. Don’t pressure yourself and say you’ll have 3 chapters written in a day. That probably won’t happen to you.



There were some days when all I wrote is a sentence or an idea down. From there, it developed further in its own time. I know you want results “just like that,” but be patient. Creativity never effectively comes when forced.



Once you had it written did you find it hard to find a publisher? That is something I am really curious about is once you have it written, where do you go from there???



Start with a market guide. There are both secular and Christian market guides, available online.



For instance, the market guide that I used to get “T.E” published was the “Sally Stuart Christian

Writers’ Market Guide.” A current, accurate edition of “Sally Stuart” comes out each February. It’s important to have the most current version of the market guide you’ve chosen, as publishers, literary agents and other information change from year to year.



Do research on the publisher you’re targeting; keep these questions, for instance, in mind: are they taking submissions, what do they require in the submission process (in example, email queries, book proposals and sample chapters).



Follow their instructions. If you don’t, you risk being discarded right then and there. Publishers receive numerous requests every single day. Don’t get off on the wrong foot by disregarding their guidelines.



The submission process for me took a year, sending 5-10 queries a month. Each project and publisher has different results, but it will probably take at least 6 months of serious submission to various literary agents and publishers before you get the response you want. You will get rejection letters; that’s part of the process. Don’t despair. This is not an overnight process. Your work is valid. It just hasn’t found the right “fit” in a publisher or an agent yet.



And Pray!!!!!! All of this comes through A LOT of prayer. A scripture that’s been with me from 1995 is as follows:



“And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.”

Habakkuk 2:2



May it bless you in your endeavors!

"B.D.- Before Disorder"

Okay, we're toddling away on the new baby blog. Getting up and going, so, yes, I repeat and repost myself. Please have patience. Any minute now, I'll be up to speed.

Anyway, found this image of me recently. It was supposed to be a classic, preserved "moment in time" photo. But I was five- and squirmy- and not interested in preserving the serious moment. And, looking at it further, yes, I had no idea of what an eating disorder was. I had no idea that I'd devote so much time, energy, worry and thought to it. I had no idea that I'd write about it, that I'd view it as a  spiritual issue in how I perceived God. Nope. I wasn't there yet. Instead, this face was there. Four generations of family (not posted, in photo form, to protect family privacy),yet, here's me, with this mug.

Yep, I was "B.D." I was "Before Disorder." You, out there, remember that time? For me, I guess, it lasted until about 7 or 8. Unfortunately, because of eating disorders now, little girls are counting fat grams and calories, stepping on scales by 2 or 3. An image that strikes my heart is this toddler of a girl, standing on a scale. This is happening now. What next? A baby's first word is "diet?"

So, how do we get back to silly faces, let alone, right connection to God? Jesus.

"Jesus said, 'Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.'"
Matthew 19:14

Yeah, I know; it's easier said or read than experienced, the faith of that little child, who squirms, makes funny faces, doesn't care about appearance or decorum.

I'm going start making more silly faces today though. Who's with me?

The Blog, Former Known as...

Old blog; challenged posting anything into. Believe me, I've tried. Not sure if it's still floating out there in space, but, for any interested cybersnooping, here goes:

Daughter Arise Wordpress Blog:



http://daughterarise.wordpress.com/

National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA) Contact Information

National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA)


603 Stewart Street, Suite 803

Seattle, WA 98101

Ph: (206)382-3587

Fax: (206) 829-8501

Information and Referral Helpline: 1-800-931-2237

Princess


Yesterday, someone asked me if I considered myself to no longer consider myself to be a princess, because I’m pro-recovery, not pro-eating disorders.

Princess. All little girls, supposedly, want to be princesses. Think about it: fairytales, dress up, costumes, wedding days. All princess stuff. We’re groomed in pink girly dreams, seemingly, right from the start.

What is a princess then? Is she beautiful? Sweet? Lovable? Let’s be honest, do you and I feel like those traits every single day? I hear crickets! Didn’t think so.

We’re all incredible beings, each one of us. Princess is just one facet to our uniqueness. We’re so much more. Need an example?

Let’s look at the late Princess Diana. Yeah, I know, the word “princess” comes right to your mind. But look at her life; look at who she was, apart from her title. She was a daughter, a friend, a girl, a woman, a wife, a mother. And that’s just scratching the surface!

When she passed away, she was called “the people’s princess.” Yes, she was beautiful, glamorous and, by royal title, indeed, a princess. But the title of “the people’s princess” had more to do with her compassion, her kindness expressed to others. We felt her vulnerability and her humanity. And, to those of us dealing with eating disorders and recovery, we also empathized with her eating disorder struggles. Being a princess didn’t prevent her from experiencing those painful challenges.

So, are we, like her, princesses in our worlds? Look around at your loved ones, your family and your friends. I’d say it’s a safe bet to suggest that each of us is, indeed, “a princess of the people.” We just don’t get how much we’re loved by other human beings, do we?

How much more difficult is it for us to know God’s love for us? No matter who you are, what you’ve been or done in your life, God has a soft spot for you, in which He sees you as His Princess. He sees ALL of you, every facet in you; you are this wonderful jewel!

So, the challenge, I suppose, is for each of us to view ourselves as a “princess,” recognizing that the word speaks to our uniqueness, not a crown on our heads, not pro-eating disorder mindsets.

Yes, I’m a Princess. You are too! Walk with your head held high; you are a child, a princess, of the Most High God!




Monday, August 16, 2010

Humor Me? Yoo Whoo Out There?

So, my lil fingers and brain cells have been busy elves, posting redundant stuff, trying to get my new baby blog toddling. Hope that my arts and crafting works, does not make my alarm blare at 1:13 a.m. or interfere with NASA's plans. Can you tell I'm already wonky? Help a girl out. Hope to hear from you out there- thankls! I'm stopping- for now...

Videos...It's continues, at the risk of annoying both you and me.

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I will get up and going here soon. More videos. Please, humor me.

More Blog Upstart, 2010

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Nap! More arts and crafts, assembling a blog

Well, let's hope this works. A brand new blog- goodie!Here's the usual blah, blah, blah. Who am I? Follow the photos, I guess.