Let’s examine the two letters comprising one little word: am.
First, the “a” of that word. What if it represented “admit?” The first step of any 12 Step program hinges on us admitting we have a problem.
1. We admitted we were powerless over a substance or behavior ─ our lives had become unmanageable.
We won’t get any further in healing without it.
“He who covers his sins will not prosper: but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy.”
And, hand in hand with that challenging truth is another truth; we don’t know what we’re doing.
“For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice: but what I hate, that I do.”
This is all the more reason we need, perhaps, to turn to our next letter in the word, “am.” We need to see the “mission” in the letter “M.”
We need to embrace a mission, something that is larger than the struggle and pain we are in when it comes to the present moment.
“Where there is no revelation, people cast off restraint; but blessed is the one who heeds wisdom's instruction.”
The New Living Translation’s interpretation of that same scripture is as follows…
“When people do not accept divine guidance, they run wild. But whoever obeys the law is joyful.”
Oh yeah, that’s an understatement.
I believe it was the late Johnny Cash who said, “We all need someone to love, something to do and something to look forward to.” That’s where mission can come in.
When we recognize there is meaning to us, significance, we can possibly endure the present moment and do what’s necessary to improve our lives and heal. It’s not about perfection, just ongoing, meaningful progress which extends beyond us as individuals.
If we can admit there is a problem and commit to our healing of it, we are in the present state of “am.”
Copyright © 2018 by Sheryle Cruse